you know what i’m tired of?

feenin for straight friends and reminding myself to stay
within boundaries.
to respect people’s right to choose
their lovers…. to respect the right to be counted as friend
to avoid the temptation to envision my body
near yours…

quiet my heart and breathe
in an effort to still my pulse.
to manage energy currents.
to steward these emotions

damn near daily
i’m reminded of the carefree nature of being single,
of accounting for no one else’s heart but my own.